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Death In The Family

by Gardens

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1.
Wake 01:21
2.
I'm covered in cold Not everything turns to stone You saw the first snow And said that our bodies lie alone A troubled mind I'll be alright here If there's a light Burning through so clear And this was never a conversation You held me down And said there's something after this My head is spinning and I can't see it We're only ghosts inside a bad dream It's taking a toll This conscience is losing hold Of what's left of this home You told me I could feel again You told me I wouldn't notice And all this sorrow is temporary Oh, can you keep an eye on me And, tell me when I start losing touch
3.
Are we so far Are we so far gone Losing track of where you are In the empty space you lean on There's a stirring in your head A worry and a tangle I've been turning in my bed And hoping I can stay warm Finding safety in company I'm taking part in it Spend the night in a hospital Keeping my distance It's tearing you apart Your eyes are getting tired But we're waiting on a weak heart They might set the room on fire And when it's time to come home We'll be watching from the windows And we'll be moving so slow Tie our hands in such a loose hold Finding safety in company I'm taking part in it Spend the night in a hospital Keeping my distance
4.
Sleep 05:24
Your calloused hands on filthy necks I saw same in my own head And your stomach is empty Like the gun that's in your hands It's in your hands I saw you sitting with a ghost Your hands are wrapped around it's shoulders And it's cold like this summers been But it's calm like it was Like it was Your bitter roots are set in deep Your arms are growing poison leaves I feel the dark that's in your sober eyes I saw your name on a sign A month before you died The house is burning down with no one inside And you hold it in Just like the way that you would try to pretend That your fine again And you won't Say another word And the winter's coming still So sleep, yeah sleep I hope there's room for me when I get there The house is burning down with no one inside And you hold it in Just like the way that you would try to pretend That your fine again
5.
Winter 04:29
The winter's holding on And I'm letting go much quicker Than I thought I would And it's settled in my home Through the open doors and windows And the cracks I left exposed And my mouth is frozen shut And the words that I would like to speak Are keeping warm inside I'm choking on my solitude And what's left unsaid isn't lost on you Through the haze that's on my breath Everything looks different And I'm starting to see ghosts In the salt stains on my clothes And if we make it to the spring This will melt away with everything I'm stretched too thin for my worn out skin And we'll make it this time but not again If I spoke too soon, then tell me now If I'm where I should be Then why can't I see motion We take, take our time I can see this from both ends
6.
Lost At Sea 03:44
I'll find a place that I could go I'll find a place that I could stay But I don't want to be alone The darkest place that I could be Lost at sea Lost at sea Lost at sea I'm finding solace in the waves Cause there's a comfort in losing control And there's a wind that's moving west I feel a tide pulling in my chest Lost at sea Lost at sea Lost at sea
7.
I'm Not Here 05:09
I swear I keep seeing A ghost in the corner And I've waited it out But the tension goes on Quietly listen And hear the house breathe And longer grows the silence Longer grows the silence between If I carry this out The guilt would rest in my hands And the way that you say There's no cure for this disease You're alright You're on fire This could've been sacred But it was a dream This house wasn't built To be torn at the seams Understand that I lie And my words are a vapor But you're standing in the doorway Standing in the doorway between If I carry this out The guilt would rest in my hands And the way that you say There's no cure for this disease You're alright You're on fire Say, say I'm not here But only if you notice I've been saying all the right things Saying all the right things now Have I put myself together Put myself together enough
8.
En Route 03:30
Got your flowers in the back seat On the drive home From a hospital run Got the call As you were passing by The old church With an empty lot And your mind raced back To that summer You were sitting in your backyard With a business card in your hand And your doorbell rang So you stand up And hear your mother's voice from the hall Were you expecting anyone And your fingers grip On the open door And the house was dark Only the natural light that lingers It's strangely dim But you turn your eyes And you see him there He came exactly When he told you he would There was something different In the way he spoke While you tried to mask The smell of smoke For the last time With your tear filled eyes When you promised him That you would never Touch the bottle again You were on your knees In the living room And saw your brother looking down From the stairs Had the year books out Sifting through each page When he asked "How could I ever be forgiven" It's a bitter thing But I'm getting there I don't call myself a saint But I believe that We're all on our way From a darker place And the road is long But it's a burden That I hope I can bear It's a bitter thing to forgive We're all on our way From a darker place It's a bitter thing We're all on our way We're all on our way
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10.
Better Off 04:14
Stop on the drive It's poorly timed I'm buying you your cigarettes Mid afternoon Alone in the room You're calling like you always do "We have some bad news Another to lose Don't want to make you have to choose" "They did everything But all the same Everything must fade away" She is better off She is better off What about me? If I had been around Would I still feel responsible? Your name is inscribed You'll stay in my mind The same way that you always were Open and free Like I want to be But I'm lost inside a guilty mind She is better off She is better off What about me? If I had been around Would I still feel responsible? You were barely hanging on I knew better than to leave And I never said goodbye But I hope that you forgive me
11.
Short Thread 04:08
Blurry eyes All the walls Are painted white All in light The sun washes An empty night There's a hole In the window shade There's a gap In the clarity Hard to find A picture of A better time I'm on the outside Swimming in my head I'm coming untied Pulling a short thread Hold a light For my eyes Feel the warmth Drift inside There's a cold In my lungs again There's a tear In my consciousness When I try to pull Myself together And come around I'm on the outside Swimming in my head I'm coming untied Pulling a short thread
12.
Architect 05:06
You're lying unconscious Your chest bursting out You looked like my father But less familiar Your body was aging But your spirit's young Your heart just grew tired And it never did forgive your lungs And I can't believe I'm hearing this But I've felt this pain before I never had listened To this voice I've heard about If I lose you in anger I think that I'd be missing out If your brother could see you I know he'd welcome you home From the back of that ambulance With a certain name left on your lips If I knew that I could see you again I swear I'd have much more to give And we can build a house from all of your plans Where our family could live If I could hold it again All the love that I have lost If I could hold it again All the love that I have lost It'll never be, the way that it was It'll never be, the way that it was Yeah your life will never leave you again Yeah your life will never leave you again Yeah your life will never leave you again Yeah your life will never leave

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released November 25, 2014

Produced, Engineered, and Mixed by Ryan "Rings" Ellery at The Panda Studios. Mastered by Piper Payne at Michael Romanowski Mastering.

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Gardens Chicago, Illinois

Illinois Indie Rock / Grunge-Pop
ilana | jordan | jackson | jake

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